TV

Costume Dramas

I’ve found a couple of things on TV recently that I’ve enjoyed. I seem to be on a costume drama kick because I can’t seem to get into contemporary-set shows and movies, but put historical costumes on the characters and I’m interested.

First, there’s The Artful Dodger, which is a Hulu show, but it’s currently also available on Disney+. This is sort of a sequel to Oliver Twist, following the Artful Dodger (now going by his given name, Jack) years later. He got caught as a thief and was sentenced to be transported to Australia. On the voyage, he began helping the ship’s surgeon, got trained as a surgeon, and ended up joining the Royal Navy as a surgeon. Now he’s in his late 20s and has left the navy to be a surgeon at a hospital in Australia — and then Fagin shows up and tries to pull him back into a life of crime. It’s tempting because the surgeons aren’t on a salary. The patients pay them directly, and the higher-class surgeons get all the paying patients, leaving him with the charity cases, so he needs money, but he has to admit that he also kind of enjoys the thrill of a good scheme. And if he doesn’t get involved and help Fagin, there’s a good chance Fagin will screw it up and get him implicated anyway. Things get even more complicated when the governor’s daughter catches them in one of their schemes. She’ll stay silent if Jack will help her train to be a surgeon. She’s read all the books and keeps up on the latest medical journals, but has no practical experience. Between the two of them, with his practical experience and her book knowledge, they make the perfect surgeon — if only he can stay out of prison.

This is mostly a lighthearted caper show, though I sometimes find it hard to watch because it’s what I call Bad Decisions Theatre. Most of the trouble the characters get into is because they make really bad decisions, and I have to remind myself that the decisions make sense for the characters, even if they aren’t the choices I’d make. There’s still some, “Oh, no, don’t do that!” shouted at the screen. There’s a growing romance (that includes some bad decisions). They have a lot of fun with the Dickens source material, bringing in some characters from other books, and then their view of what Oliver Twist would turn out to be like as an adult is hilarious (and makes a lot of sense).

Jack/the Dodger is played by Thomas Brodie-Sangster, perhaps best known as the little boy with a crush on his classmate in Love Actually, but also the oldest kid in the first Nanny McPhee movie, along with appearances on Doctor Who, A Game of Thrones, and a cameo in The Force Awakens (hitting a geek trifecta), plus he was the voice of Ferb on Phineas and Ferb (must have been an easy gig because the running joke was that Ferb spoke once per episode). Now he’s all grown up, but he still somehow looks exactly the same as he did as a kid while still looking mature. He doesn’t have a baby face. I think it was that he came across as an old soul as a kid, so his features just solidified instead of changing. It took a little time in this show to get used to the idea of him being an adult and doing adult things (which wasn’t helped by the fact that I watched the show in January and February after watching Love Actually on Christmas Eve).

Then there’s the new production of The Count of Monte Cristo. I believe it will start airing on PBS in the US on March 22, but the whole series is already streaming on Passport if you donate to your PBS station. I think I was in high school when I read the book (when I went through a Dumas phase that had nothing to do with any required reading in school), so the details are blurry enough that I don’t know how faithful this adaptation is, but it feels faithful, at least more so than a lot of movie adaptations tend to be. The story is about a young man who’s wrongfully imprisoned. While he spends 15 years locked away with no trial, a fellow prisoner educates him and clues him in about the location of a lost treasure. He manages to escape, then uses the treasure to set himself up in the new identity as the Count of Monte Cristo. When he learns about the three men who got him sent to prison to further their own positions, he sets out to get his revenge on them. What I’ve always loved about this story is that he doesn’t get revenge by doing anything to them. He merely reveals things they’ve done (sometimes getting justice for other people they’ve wronged) or sets up traps that they walk into because of their corruption (a good person wouldn’t be caught in these traps). It’s a great story if you find true justice satisfying, though the first episode when our hero is getting wrongfully imprisoned is tough to get through.

I thought this was an excellent adaptation and I watched the whole thing in a week because it was like a book I couldn’t put down. Sam Claflin plays “Monte Cristo,” and I was surprised to see that he’s become something of a rom-com leading man in recent years because I mostly remember him as the guy in the thankless roles in fantasy-type movies. He was the young missionary held captive by the pirates in the fourth Pirates of the Caribbean movie, and he was the duke’s son who’d been Snow White’s childhood friend in Snow White and the Huntsman. He was supposed to be the Mr. Wrong in the love triangle with the Huntsman, but I thought he was a far more interesting character. I think he does a good job here as a guy who had most human feeling burnt out of him and who’s fixating on the wrong thing for what will fix him. He’s simultaneously a good guy and a bit of a soulless monster, and the fact that he’s being a soulless monster is eating away at the good guy part of him.

If you have Passport, check it out now, and if you don’t, then check it out when it comes on TV. Passport is probably the most reasonable streaming service. It’s a $5/month (or $60/year) donation, and you get so many of the Masterpiece Theatre shows (present and past), plus all the Ken Burns documentaries, tons of Great Performances stuff, etc. There are the usual sponsor promos at the beginning of a show, like when you watch on PBS, but no ad breaks, and you can usually get all the pledge drive programming without the pledge breaks. They also usually drop whole seasons up front so you don’t have to wait for the next episode, and sometimes, like in this case, they drop them before they come on TV. Since I’m not a night owl but live in the Eastern time zone, I like it for time shifting. I may watch the episodes on the same day they air, but I watch them an hour or more earlier. (I’m not being sponsored here, I just genuinely think this is a good deal and a good cause.)

Life

Advanced Forestry

I spent the last two days getting my tree taken down, and it was fascinating to watch. One of the guys climbed the tree (I think he had some kind of spikes on his boots to help, but otherwise he was free climbing) to place the anchor lines that they then clipped to and used to go up and down. He’d swing over to a branch, tie a line around it, cut it off, and the guys on the ground would use the line to lower it. It was like watching Cirque du Soleil with chainsaws.

A view of a very tall tree. There are small dots up in the branches that are men working on the tree.
If you look carefully, you can see the two guys working up in the tree. That gives some scale about just how tall that tree was.

The got most of the work done on Monday and just had to wrap it up on Tuesday, but that was when they were dealing with the trunk of the tree, and with a tree that old, you can imagine the trunk was pretty thick. When it got closer to the ground one of the guys asked if I wanted the trunk cut down or if I wanted him to make me a chair, so after a bit of chainsaw carving I have a tree stump throne for surveying my kingdom. I’m pretty sure I’m going to use that in a fantasy novel.

A chair carved out of the stump of a large cherry tree.
My new throne for surveying my woodland realm. I probably need to give it a good sanding.

I’d also asked for another tree to be trimmed around power lines as part of the contract, but they went ahead and trimmed all my trees, cutting off any bad branches they noticed, and they left me a nice stack of the cherry wood to use for the fire pit, in a smoker, or for carving. The guy who carved my chair is planning to make a table out of some of the wood, so the tree will live on in some way.

It turned out that a couple of the guys were aspiring authors, so we talked shop and I gave them advice (I think the chair carving was “payment” for the writing advice). They were really cool and interesting to talk to, but it’s so nice to have my house and yard to myself again and to have some peace and quiet after two days of chainsaws going constantly. I was utterly exhausted by the time they left yesterday, and I wasn’t even the one doing any of the work. I think it was just the release of constant low-level tension. It was lovely this morning to have breakfast in my pajamas instead of being up, dressed, and ready for the tree crew to come first thing in the morning.

I’m eager to start doing some landscaping, but we still have a chance of freezing nights, so it’s a little early to put plants out. I have crocuses coming up in my backyard, though, and daffodils are about to bloom. I didn’t see this house until late March last year, and they’d mowed everything down to show the house, so the spring flowers are going to be a surprise this year.

A small cluster of white crocus flowers sits among dead leaves and twigs.
Some of my backyard crocuses.
Life

Weather Whiplash

Texans like to talk about how much their weather changes, but in some times of the year, I think Virginia can be even worse. Last weekend was warm and sunny. I spent most of the weekend working in the yard, trying to dig up some weeds that produce barbed seeds before they can sprout the branches that produce these seeds. I walked to church, and I spent time sitting out on my deck. Even so, there were still piles of ice/snow left from the late January storm. I had to step around these on street corners as I walked downtown.

Monday, I spent the day snuggled on the sofa with the electric blanket, watching it snow. It was above freezing most of the day, so the snow didn’t really stick, but the evergreen trees in my yard looked like flocked Christmas trees.

We had a couple of cool, rainy days, then it got warm again. I spent most of yesterday sitting on the deck, brainstorming a book. It’s supposed to stay warm for most of the next week. Maybe the last of that ice will finally melt. I’m hoping to get more work done in the yard. It looks like I’m going to have a lot of bulbs flowering soon, so I want to get the bad plants out of the way.

I’m having to take down one of my trees, the biggest one. It’s blighted, so it’s dying/dead and will become a hazard soon. The tree guy estimates it’s about 100 years old, so it pre-dates my house. It’s actually closer to my neighbor’s house and part of it hangs over their roof, so I want to get it taken care of before it starts dropping branches. My house is probably safe from it, unless it topples over entirely heading downhill. The tree guy has suggested other trees I could plant and where I should plant them. That may have to wait because having a 100+ foot tall tree taken down from a spot where they can’t reach it with heavy machinery is rather expensive (though less expensive than replacing my neighbor’s metal roof and solar panels). They’re coming next week to do the work, and they do it by climbing the tree and cutting it down from the top. I may spend those days on the deck, watching the progress.

A tall, bare tree with lumpy blighted branches looms over the yard and the house next door.
My poor blighted tree. For scale, you can see the roof of my neighbor’s porch to the left.
A twig is covered with a disgusting black growth.
And this is why the tree has to come down. The branches are covered in this blight. That’s the bumpy stuff you can see in the tree’s branches.

I’m hoping we’re done with snow and ice, but they tell me it can come as late as April. At least we should be done with single-digit temperatures for the season. Everyone tells me this was an unusually brutal winter. In Texas, I usually dreaded spring because it meant summer was coming, and that was miserable, but now I’m enjoying spring weather and watching things come back to life. Except for the weeds.

writing

The Process: Characters

One thing I tend to get praised for in my books is my characters. I seem to write characters that readers fall in love with and like spending time with. I have to admit that I like my own characters. I could spend time with most of them without them having to do anything (in fact, there are a lot of scenes that end up getting cut because they aren’t needed for the plot and are just the characters hanging out). I don’t have one particular process for creating characters, but there are a number of things I may do.

Sometimes a story idea starts with a character and I try to find a story to fit them into. Sophie in the Fairy Tale series was one of these. She’d been living in my head for a long time before I figured out where to put her. But most often, I come up with a story concept first and then figure out what characters I need to tell that story. Usually there’s a character who comes up first, who may or may not be the main character, and then the other characters build outward from there. In the book I’m currently developing, I knew something about who the main character would be, but they were pretty vague still. It was another character who came to life first, and then from there I was able to flesh out the main character, and as I developed the setting and the story more, other characters started coming into focus.

There are a few tools I use to find the characters. I’m fond of the Enneagram, which sorts people into personality types. Generally I can read through these and one will jump out as a good fit for a character, and then as I go through the descriptions, the character will start to come to life in my head. At that point, I start adding other details and usually don’t refer to the Enneagram again. I may also play with archetypes. At this point, I can do the usual character worksheets to get physical description, goals, needs, key things from the backstory, character traits and quirks, personality, likes and dislikes, etc. I try to throw in at least one thing that’s a bit unexpected so that the character isn’t a stereotype. Just one trait that’s the opposite of what you’d expect for that kind of person really brings a character to life and makes them feel more three-dimensional.

If a character hasn’t solidified during this process, I may “cast” the character, thinking of an actor who might be a good fit. Then I can usually start hearing their voice in my head, and once the character has come to life, I can ditch the casting.

A big thing about creating a character is what the character wants, and that comes in layers.

There’s the story goal, which is usually an external, concrete thing. You could write a movie scene (so no introspection) showing them getting this thing. It’s something that comes up during the story, mostly for the protagonist, but other characters may have their own goals for subplots, or they may support or oppose the protagonist’s goal.

Then there’s the personal goal. This is something the character already wants at the beginning of the story. In musicals and Disney movies, there’s often an “I Want” song at the beginning, and this tells you what the character’s personal goal is. Think “Part of Your World” in The Little Mermaid. She wants to be human at the beginning of the story, before she knows the prince even exists. It’s only later that she gets the story goal of getting the prince to kiss her so she can stay human. There may also/instead be a need, something the character needs in order to be their true self or be happy but that they don’t even know they need. They think the thing they want will make them happy or change their life, but the need is the thing that will really work. The personal goal may either conflict or dovetail with the story goal. The personal goal can be somewhat abstract, so you may not necessarily be able to write a movie scene of them getting it, but it will be clear that they have it.

Then there’s what I call the drive, the need deep down inside that causes the character to make the kinds of decisions they make. It’s a need that can never truly be met because they’ll always either need it or fear losing it. These drives are basic things like the need for love, security, power, control, etc. Yeah, everyone needs these things to some degree, but the drive is the one that powers the character, and it doesn’t change unless the character goes through a transformation so profound that they’re basically a different person.

Once I know these things about a character, I can develop a plot that forces them to change and grow and that will be driven by them making choices that are consistent with their character. But as I plot I may come up with ideas for the characters, so it tends to go back and forth. Characters drive the plot, which alters the characters.

I generally know a character is ready to write when I find myself imagining them in scenes that won’t be part of the plot, just them in normal life before the story begins, doing things like their job or hanging out with friends. I can see how they’d react to various events and what they do when there’s no crisis going on. Then I feel like I really know the character, so it’s time to throw them into the story.

writing

Story Development

I’m documenting my process as I start work on a new book, in part to give my readers a glimpse into how a book comes to life and in part to have as evidence in case anyone ever tries to accuse me of using AI (I don’t even know how to get to an AI to use it and have zero interest in learning).

I’m developing a story idea that isn’t ready to write yet. This one’s been on a long, strange journey. I remember the moment I first got the germ of the idea. I was making my bed (I actually have two ideas I came up with while making my bed — is that the new shower for idea generation?) when it struck me. I developed and wrote a whole book based on it, but it didn’t really work. I sent it to my agent, and she agreed that it didn’t work.

But then sometime last year (I think it was actually while I was making my bed) I came up with a different approach to the basic idea, aiming at a new audience and going in a very different direction. That was when things started coming together. I read some books and watched some movies and shows that were in roughly the same genre, mostly as a way of stimulating my brain along those lines. I thought about what I liked about those things and what didn’t work for me and what I would do differently, plus I knew what I needed to steer away from to make my take on it unique.

I also tried to find some real-world parallels to some of the things in the idea. Sometimes this is an excuse for me to read history, but I think using real events as a skeleton to a story idea gives it some degree of plausibility. It’s something that could happen because it has happened. This particular book has a bad king who’s a mix of a lot of bad kings from history — it’s interesting how many kings followed approximately the same pattern, and that pattern keeps repeating in other leaders. I think of this as the idea-generation research phase, as opposed to the fact-gathering research (how does this work, could this happen, etc.). It’s about sparking plot ideas. I give my brain a lot of input and then it breaks it up, mixes it together, and a story comes out.

At this point, I could have written the book description (the text that goes on the back cover of a paperback or that you see in Amazon listings), which makes it feel like I have the book all ready to write, but it’s still really vague. I only know the big-picture general things, but I don’t know what the world looks like or who the characters are as people, and though I know what the story goal and main conflict are, I don’t have a plot.

Over the years, I’ve put together a worksheet of things I need to know to create a character, and I’ve worked through those for the main characters. I’m starting to get a sense of who some of the secondary characters might be, but they aren’t really formed yet.

Meanwhile, I’ve been trying to develop my world. I had a vague sense that part of it might be based on a place I’ve visited, but more to do with an area that feeds into that place. I found some videos about the region I was thinking of, which I haven’t visited, and that clicked things into place. I can suddenly picture the world, and some things about that gave me ideas of how the magic might work.

The looking for images is one of the weirder parts of my process. I find that it really helps me to find a reference image, to mentally “cast” the people and places. Once I have those concrete images from reality, the characters and places come to life for me, and then they immediately diverge from the real images and take on a life of their own so that if I could take a photo of what’s in my head it would no longer be recognizable from the source. I was looking through some files for an older book and found the pictures, and I didn’t even recognize what characters and places those pictures were supposed to be of, even though they inspired what was in the book that I wrote.

This whole process feels like I’ve got a lot of mist swirling around, and bits of it might start taking more concrete form so I can see images, and then it gets clearer and clearer as people appear and their setting becomes clear. I don’t think I’m yet ready to start working on the plot, though. When I try to work through the main plot beats, I don’t get any farther than the first act, so there’s a lot more work to do.

I do all this work by hand. I do have some character and setting sheets on Scrivener that I’ll fill out to have handy for checking details as I write, but my brainstorming is done by scribbling in composition books. Some of it may be formal, like going through my character worksheets or story beat sheets, but sometimes I’m just journaling as I think of ideas. I’ll start a page on a topic, like setting or villain, and then when I get an idea on that topic, I’ll add it to the page. I’ll ramble about magic systems or the history of the world. It’s all basically just capturing my thinking so I can remember all my ideas.

writing

Avoiding AI

The issue of artificial intelligence (AI) and large language models (LLMs, like Chat GPT) continues to cause turmoil in the writing and publishing world. There was recently a writer profiled in an article who claims to write hundreds of books a year, published under a variety of names, using AI, though it doesn’t seem as though any of them sell very well and the way she makes her money is by teaching other people how to generate books using AI and selling AI prompts and even complete AI books that the buyer can edit and customize. There have been authors caught leaving in the AI prompts, so it seems they used AI to write at least part of their books and just pasted in the result, and somehow no one actually proofed the final book to notice that the prompt was included in the pasted passage.

On the other hand, there seems to be a bit of an AI witch hunt going on among some reviewers, with hours-long YouTube videos analyzing books as to whether or not they may have been AI-generated or reviews calling out books for having hallmarks of AI — even though they were published before AI existed. Sometimes it’s more a case of AI imitating existing books and writers’ styles, since that’s what they were trained on. I have a number of my books included in one of the lawsuits against an AI company, since they trained their AI on pirated books. That means there’s a chance some AI writing could sound like me — and vice versa.

What some artists are doing to counter possible accusations of AI use is documenting their process. If they get accused of having used AI to generate a piece of art, they can show the pencil sketches and the various phases of the work. Authors are starting to do the same thing, documenting and discussing the process so that if someone accuses them of using AI, they can show how the book developed. The reviewers on the AI “witch hunt” do seem to check authors’ social media and other writings to see if there’s been any discussion of how the author feels about AI and of the process of creating a book. I suppose you could create AI prompts based on the kind of work authors can talk about, since we can’t really show the pencil sketches the way an artist can unless we publish every draft of a book, but showing that there was some thought that went into the writing can help counter some accusations, or at least shed doubt on them.

The tricky thing for me is that I don’t really like talking about a book while I’m writing it. A book in progress is a really fragile thing for me. To use a metaphor from my recent pottery class, it’s a lot like when you’re shaping something on the pottery wheel. If the thing you’re making gets jolted in any way, if your hands move in the wrong way, what you’re planning to be a vase may end up being a pitcher (true story). I’ve found that I can’t even talk in specifics to my agent. I thought it would save me a lot of time to hash out the idea with my agent before I start writing so that I know I’m on the right track, but when I did that and had an idea she approved of, I found that I couldn’t write the book. I didn’t care about that story anymore and when I tried writing it, it came out dull and lifeless. It wasn’t really my story anymore because someone else had been a part of shaping it. I may brainstorm with someone when I’m well into a book and need to work out a plot twist or an ending, but the book has to have taken shape by then. I can’t talk about it in the idea stage.

There’s also the issue of spoilers. If I talk too much about a book, I might give readers more info than they want before they get to read the book for themselves. Or it could make people think they’ve already read it. I could probably give more specifics in my newsletter because those are my most devoted fans who will be buying the book based on my name or the series. But if someone’s just scrolling through social media and sees something without registering who it is, there’s a chance that if they ever come across the book they might think it sounds familiar and figure they already read it.

And there’s what I think of as the Rogue One trailer effect. Between the time the first trailer for the movie Rogue One was released and the time the movie was released, the movie had been rewritten and in some cases even re-shot, so most of the scenes that were in the trailer weren’t in the final movie. There were even bits in the trailer that were never meant to be in the movie. The camera crew wanted to make the most of some of the locations they had for a limited time, so they shot things that weren’t in the script if they saw something that looked cool, and those cool bits were used in the trailer. The final movie was great, but the first time I saw it, it was disconcerting because I kept waiting for the trailer moments that never came. My books go through a lot of changes in the revision process, so there’s a good chance that if I talk about a scene I’m working on, that scene either won’t be in the final book or will be drastically different in the final book.

But I may try to document some of my process in a general sense without talking in specifics about the book. That can help readers know the kind of thought that goes into a book, and I hope that will show anyone wondering about AI use that my books are entirely artisan and organic. I’m in the development stage of a book so may have to catch up, but otherwise I’m starting at the beginning of a project.

For the record, I don’t knowingly use AI for anything. I feel like using AI to write would be like taking a forklift to the gym. Yeah, I could make it lift huge amounts of weight, but I wouldn’t get anything out of it, and it would probably cause damage to the gym. I write to get stories out of my head, and I can’t see how feeding a prompt to AI would do that for me. The story would still be in my head, and the result wouldn’t be the story in my head. I wouldn’t become a better writer by having a machine churn things out for me. I don’t trust it for research because it doesn’t give you facts. It gives you something that sounds like a report of facts, and the facts may or may not be true. I can’t imagine using it for brainstorming because it’s giving you the synthesis of what’s already been done. You’re going to get boring, generic ideas. And then there are the ethical issues. They were trained without permission on work stolen from other people (including me) and they have a huge environmental cost. The reason I say “knowingly” is because they keep trying to add AI to everything. I do use spellcheck, and while that technology has been around for a long time, they’ve started using AI for that (and making it worse). I’m not great at spotting AI art, so while I try to use artists and designers who avoid AI, people can lie and I might not know. I try to track images I use for promo that come from the image library of the applications I use back to the source to see if they were AI-generated, but it’s hard to tell sometimes and I may miss something.

writing

Not Ready to Start

My writing focus for February has been developing a new book concept. I’ve had an idea lurking for a long time, even tried writing it years ago but didn’t like the result, then recently came up with a new way to approach the concept that I think will work better (and be marketable), so I want to write it. And that means doing all the work to flesh out the concept so it starts looking more like a book. A concept is just a general idea — I had a vague sense of the main character and the plot and setting, but not much else.

As often happens, I felt like I had a full book ready to go until I started writing down what I know about it and realized how vague it was. Over the last couple of weeks I’ve developed the main characters and I have a lot of backstory, so I thought I was ready to work on plot, but then I realized that the world is really vague, and that will affect the plot. So now I need to figure out more about this world and society.

This kind of work is basically a cycle of fleshing out and sharpening what I have. I get a clearer character, which gives me more ideas for the plot, which gives me ideas for the world, which also affects the plot, and that then affects the characters. I guess it’s like sculpting, where you start with a block of marble roughly the size of the piece you’re making, and then you start taking off chunks until it’s sort of the right shape, and then from there you use different tools to get closer to the shape you want until you’re finally doing the fine detail and polishing it.

It’s been a few years since I last created an entirely new concept and new world, so I forgot how involved it can get, especially when the story deals with a big-picture world instead of one focused location. I tend to get impatient to start writing, but I’ve learned the hard way that the more thought I put in ahead of time, the better the book is. If the ideas are still vague when I start writing and I figure that I’ll get more specific as I go along, I seldom get specific enough and the book falls apart at the end.

I’d planned to start writing at the beginning of March to get enough of a very rough draft to see if the concept works, but I may have to delay that a bit. I have to remind myself that it’s better to get it right, and that will end up saving me time in the long run because I won’t spend months trying to figure out an ending after I’ve written the book. At the same time, this kind of brainstorming before I start writing is my favorite part of the writing process, so the temptation is to drag it out and put off the scary step of writing the first words, so I have to be honest with myself about which impulse is ruling me at the moment — is it the impatience to get going on a book that really isn’t ready, or am I lingering too long in my favorite phase? Or is the book truly ready to start?

Right now, I have no doubts. The book isn’t ready to start. I have a lot of work to do, and I don’t know if that will all happen in the next week.

Meanwhile, I saw yesterday that a big-name author has a book coming out with a similar concept. I think what I’m doing with it is going to be very, very different and even will be aimed at a different audience, but you could probably use the same sentence to describe the basic concept for both books. As wacky as publishing is, I don’t know how publishers would react (and I am hoping to at least make a go of traditional publishing with this). They could be in “this is hot, so we want lots more like it” mode so they’d welcome something that’s similar but still different. Or they could be at the point of “we’ve already done a book with that premise” even if the execution is very different.

I guess all I can do is write it and see what happens, and if a publisher doesn’t want it I can always publish it myself.

Life

Moving With Purpose

As I watch the Winter Olympics, I find myself in awe of the physical condition of the athletes. They have strength, endurance, and flexibility. They’re so fit, which is the exact opposite of me. I’d love to be in even half that shape, but I have this one little problem: I hate to exercise. By that I mean exercising just for the point of exercising or getting fit — lifting weights just to move heavy things, walking just for exercise or, worse, using a treadmill of stationary bicycle. It’s just so boring, and it takes a long time to feel the benefits from exercise. When I try to start a fitness program, I get bored with it and give up before I start seeing the kind of results that would encourage me to continue. Even with yoga, where I feel better immediately after doing it, I have to force myself to do it, and then I can’t wait for it to be over.

But that doesn’t mean I don’t like activity. When I was spending days shoveling snow, I found that I was actually enjoying myself. There was a great sense of accomplishment from seeing the results, and I felt myself getting stronger. I get bored with walking for the sake of walking, like walking laps or going on a regular route purely for fitness purposes, but I love walking when there’s a purpose to it. I enjoy walking as a form of transportation. One of my favorite things about where I live now is the fact that I can walk to so many things. I walk to church when the weather allows it, and I walk to events downtown. I can walk to concerts in the park or to the community garden market. I also love hiking and being in the woods and I enjoy walking when I’m exploring.

Or I enjoy activity when it’s something I’m doing for fun, like dancing. I was probably at my most fit when I was taking ballet classes, and ballroom dancing is fun. I can make myself do exercise when I have a specific goal, like when I was in physical therapy and trying to get back full function of a knee or shoulder, or when I’m trying to get better at something I enjoy. One reason I was so fit when taking ballet was because I’d do other exercises during the week to make myself do better in ballet.

What I’ve figured out from this is that I need a purpose to make myself do an activity. Even making exercise a task on my calendar or giving myself points toward rewards for doing it doesn’t motivate me. But having something specific and tangible that I’m trying to accomplish does work. So if I’m not walking because I need to get somewhere, I need to come up with some other purpose, like something I want to explore. In a town full of historic districts, that should be easy enough. I can play tourist and walk the way I did when I visited the town on vacation. When the ice and snow clear out, I’ll have a lot of garden work to do. Then the yoga will work as a way to undo the aches from the garden work and long walks. I may look into some dance classes.

I can’t believe it took me this long to realize that having a purpose might make a big difference. I guess it’s like the way I have a hard time keeping my house clean but can get it in shape if I might have company. I need external motivation for some things.

Now I just need enough ice and snow to clear so I can get out and do more.

TV

A Romantic Adventure

With Valentine’s Day coming tomorrow, I suppose it would be on point to talk about something romantic, so I think I’ll plug one of my favorite romantic TV series that I just finished rewatching yet again: Once Upon a Time in Wonderland. It’s a spin-off of the Once Upon a Time series, but is only slightly connected. Aside from one thing that might be a bit confusing if you’re not familiar with the parent series, this one pretty much stands alone. It’s a self-contained 13-episode story, so it never had the chance to spin out of control in the way the original series did, and I think I may enjoy it more than I enjoyed the main series.

We’ve got two romances that actually work, and one of them is truly healthy and supportive. There’s a good villain redemption that involves the villain realizing that they were doing wrong, knowing where they went wrong, apologizing to the people they wronged, suffering the consequences for their evil actions, and trying to atone for their wrongs. Then there’s also a really satisfying villain comeuppance.

Where the series relates to the parent Once Upon a Time series is in structure. Like the parent series, it involves a mash-up of (Disney versions of) fairy tales and other stories. In this case, it’s an odd mix of Alice in Wonderland and Aladdin that somehow works. Jafar from Aladdin is the Big Bad, and there are genies (though not the Genie). There are also a few bits from Robin Hood, and there’s a suggestion that one of the characters is one of Cinderella’s stepsisters. It’s also told with the present-day story plus flashbacks to things from the backstory that are relevant to the current story (a lot like the structure of Lost).

This is essentially a sequel to Alice in Wonderland. As an adult, Alice goes back to Wonderland to find evidence that Wonderland is real to show her father, who thinks she made up the stories about her adventures. While she’s there, she meets someone and falls in love and decides to stay, but then she loses her love and returns home, grief-stricken. Our story picks up when she gets word that her lost love may still be alive, so she sets off to go back to Wonderland and rescue him, but she finds out that this is all part of a much greater evil scheme.

I really like the romance in this series because it’s so healthy. It involves two people who like and respect each other. They start as friends, then fall in love. All the conflict keeping them apart is external, so there’s no bickering. It probably would have been a boring story if we’d seen it in chronological order, since all the conflict comes after they’re already in love and a couple. But this story starts with the conflict keeping them apart and focuses on their efforts to get back to each other and later to overcome the obstacles to them being able to have peace. We see the early part of their relationship, with them meeting and falling in love, in flashback, so it’s just a highlight reel of the pivotal moments set against their current woes.

Alice makes for a great heroine. She’s good at heart and kind, but without being an idiot about it or a total pushover. She can be steely and ruthless when she has to be. We see her learning how to fight in the flashbacks, so it’s not one of those cases of someone just picking up a sword and miraculously being good at it. She’s also clever and mostly avoids falling for the villains’ traps. She keeps her head in a crisis. I just really find myself liking her.

This series is one of my comfort views. I wouldn’t call it cozy because there’s some serious peril, but I find it oddly reassuring now that I know the outcome. I like spending time with these people. Their version of Wonderland can be a bit campy, but I like it for the most part. There’s a bit of a steampunk esthetic in some of it. My only real quibbles for the series are the “1990s homecoming dress from David’s Bridal” look for the fancy court dresses and the epilogue. I can kind of see some of the reason why they gave that outcome to some of the characters, but it doesn’t ring true to me as something they would have been happy with.

The series is showing on Disney+, so if you want something in hour-long (a bit less) chunks that wraps up in 13 episodes and has a nice mix of action and romance with a fairytale flair, it’s worth checking out.

exploring

Behind the Organ

Last weekend’s adventure involved a Sunday-afternoon field trip to learn how they make pipe organs. There’s an organ builder in town (well, just outside town), and every so often when they’ve got an organ built and ready to ship, they have an open house to show off their workshop. One of the founders of the company (now retired) is in our choir, as is one of the current owners, along with several employees. The woman who makes the metal pipes often sits next to me in choir, and our assistant organist works there. This company built our church’s current organ, so if something goes wrong with it, we’ve got a lot of people in the choir loft who would know how to fix it.

The workshop is in an old school building just outside town, and it looks like they hollowed it out so that the main room goes all the way to the roof. They need all that space to put the organ together, and even then they don’t have enough room to put the biggest pipes in the proper configuration. They put the organ together as close to the way it will be in its final home to connect all the pipes and rig it all together, do a preliminary tuning and voicing and test it, and then they disassemble the whole thing and transport it to its home, where they assemble it and then do a final voicing and tuning, since the location affects the sound. This company makes mechanical organs, so there are no electronics. They only need electricity to power the fan and bellows. Otherwise, these organs are just like those built hundreds of years ago.

A large wooden pipe organ sits in temporary housing.
The front of the pipe organ in its temporary housing in the workshop.

It was really neat seeing what’s inside the organ from the back, since it’s not in the kind of cabinet it will be in when it’s finally set up. I’ve seen bits and pieces of the inside of our organ, but not the parts that are usually hidden.

The back of the organ console, with thousands of cables connecting keys to pipes.
This is what’s behind the console, with all those cables going to the pipes to open and close them based on what keys are pressed and what stops are open.

This company has its own lumber mill nearby (we saw the outside of this because the person who was driving initially followed the wrong GPS directions, having it take us to the mill instead of the workshop), and most of the wood is hand-carved, though they do use some computer-assisted cutting where precision is important. The woman who makes the pipes does it all by hand, and there are about 3,000 pipes in an organ. She says she goes through a lot of audiobooks while working.

Bits of carved woodwork lie on a workbench. The view through the window behind is of snow-covered hills and mountains in the distance.
This is some of the woodwork that will go on the facade of the organ when it’s installed.

A retired church organist was there playing the organ, so there was a nice soundtrack for exploring the workshop and socializing. Not only did I run into a lot of people from church, but I also saw one of my neighbors there.

And we also got some nice scenery. One of the few good things about the crust of ice on top of the snow was that it keeps it all looking pristine, so we saw rolling snow-covered hills with mountains in the background.

The view through an old square-paned window, with rolling hills covered in snow in the foreground and mountains in the distance.
The view from the workshop was spectacular, and it made for a nice drive to get out there.