Life

Birthday Adventures

Today’s my birthday, and I’m giving myself the day off (mostly) to have fun. I don’t have firm plans, but most of the bigger things I have in mind for celebrating will come later in the month when it’s cooler. Today is going to be hot and with a chance of storms, so I don’t want to go too far. I think I may head up to the book fair — it’s really just a big bookstore, but they call it a book fair. It’s about three barns full of books and book-related stuff like calendars, puzzles and notebooks. They also sell closeout merchandise they get from large retailers like Target. I got my coziest pair of winter boots there last year. You never know what you’ll find, so it’s like a hunting expedition.

From there, I can get to a couple of farm markets and there’s the Amish mall (I think there’s just one shop there that sells Amish-made wood goods, but they also have a housewares shop and a sewing shop that cater to Mennonites). There are some things I’m looking for to do some projects around the house. And then there’s the international grocery store not far from there so I can restock on tea. I may have lunch while I’m out, then there’s an ice cream shop on the way home, and I hope to be back before the afternoon storms kick in. I may treat myself to dinner out in the evening, if it’s not too hot to walk downtown or isn’t storming at that time.

I have to sing for a funeral Saturday morning, so I may get lunch and gelato at the shop downtown afterward. Otherwise, I’m planning to let myself relax both Friday and Saturday. I’ve had a busy couple of weeks, and I’ve done a lot of house work and yard work. I have some craft projects I’ve been working on, and I have books.

Later in the month, I have a day trip planned and a short overnight trip/mini vacation planned. There are a lot of downsides to having an August birthday, and one is that the weather usually isn’t great. The other is that I was never in school for my birthday or able to get invitations to my school friends, so I seldom had birthday parties as a kid. As an adult, this seems to be when everyone is out of town, getting in one last trip before school starts.

Books

A Return to Regency Romances

One genre I really miss is the Regency romance. Not the Regency-set historical romance, like the Bridgerton books, but the old “category” Regencies that were modeled on Georgette Heyer’s books, which were modeled on Jane Austen. They were short books in a similar kind of tone and content to Austen and Heyer, so very chaste, witty dialogue, clever heroines, and maybe something to say about society and the plight of women in it. They were category-like lines, so a certain number of books fitting certain guidelines were published every month, and you could even subscribe to a line to get all the books every month. The subscription model died off with the growth of Amazon — why subscribe to get all the books delivered to you, some of which you might not like, when you can pick and choose exactly the books you want to get delivered to you? And this kind of book became less popular as the steamier historicals moved into the Regency period. I think they also sort of killed themselves because they started changing the books to be steamier, but still not truly steamy, as the Regency-set steamy historicals became popular, which meant that the people who liked them for what they were no longer liked them but they weren’t steamy enough to appeal to the people who’d never been interested in them because they were too mild.

I started reading these in junior high, and I particularly loved that a lot of them had unconventional heroines, the kind who were still unmarried at a later age (like actually in their 20s) because they were intellectual “bluestockings” or wild tomboys who didn’t fit into society. I guess maybe there was a hint of “not like other girls” there, but I suspect it was more a way of having less icky age gaps than you really might have had in that period and finding reasons for that. Of course she’s not yet married at 21, she’s terribly bookish and tends to bore anyone who dances with her with her opinions. Or she’s a better rider than the men, which intimidates them.

I recently found a book at the library that gave me all the old Regency romance vibes, but with some modern twists, Fast and Fastidious by R.M. Caldwell. Our heroine is very much coded as neurospicy, though not labeled as such in the book because they wouldn’t have known about autism. She doesn’t understand the unwritten social rules, so she writes them down and codifies them for herself, then rigidly follows them so she won’t risk getting it wrong. The one area where she breaks from society’s norms is in her interest in carriages. She knows all the specs and how they’re put together, and when she learns of the midnight races, in which competitors meet at midnight during the full moon to race carriages, she can’t resist. But when a new person moves into a neighboring estate and shows up as a competitor at the race just when there’s a string of carriage robberies, she can’t help but be suspicious and decides to get to the bottom of it.

We have drawing room and ballroom intrigue and lots of witty Regency banter, and all the things that make this kind of book so much fun, along with secret identities and espionage. Throwing a heroine who struggles to understand rules that don’t make sense into the rules-driven Regency period is an interesting twist to the genre. These are such fun characters and a fun story, with a romance that works for me (I can see why they’d like each other and can imagine their relationship working) and it reminded me of some of my favorite books when I was reading a lot of Regencies. I hope this author writes more books (nothing else is listed on Amazon) because this was just what I was in the mood for.

writing life

Productivity!

This has been a crazily productive week, and I proved to myself that I do have time for the things I tend to put off.

For one thing, I’ve written about 4,000 words a day every day this week. That’s around the peak pace when I’m really on a roll, but I haven’t managed to sustain that pace for a long time.

But while I was doing that, I also got my house in order and took care of a lot of projects. I love having a neat house, but I hate housework and I always feel like I don’t have the time for it. I get busy and things get out of control, so it feels overwhelming, so I can’t get started and it gets more out of control. Since I’m near the end of a book, I kept saying I’d deal with it when I finished the book, but then it was distracting so I didn’t get as much work done as I’d like.

This week, I decided to do alternating sprints. I’d write a thousand words, then take a break to work around the house. I started with something easy, getting my bedroom tidied. That just involved putting away the clothes that had piled up on the Chair of Doom, then dusting and running a Swiffer over the floor. I got all that done during one break. Energized by that progress, I wrote another thousand words and then tidied the office. I also got a good start on cleaning the kitchen while I made tea during an afternoon break between writing sessions. By the end of the day, the kitchen was mostly clean and my bedroom and office were in order, and I had 4,000 words.

The next day, I started on the living room on my breaks. I sorted out the work stuff that had ended up in what I call my writing nest on the sofa, where I’d been doing brainstorming. I also got the coffee table cleared off, and then I finished cleaning the kitchen. I still got 4,000 words done.

Wednesday, I vacuumed the sofa and flipped the cushions for better wear and got the coffee table totally cleaned. I ran some errands and got a big basket/tote for the living room to put all the throws in when I’m not using them so they don’t take over the living room. And 4,000 words.

Thursday, I vacuumed the rugs, cut the grass in the front lawn, and did a lot of weeding. And I still got 4,000 words written. It was good to have a nice, clean living room to collapse in that evening.

Today’s a busy day, as I had a grocery run, then it’s chamber music day and I have a Zoom meeting, so I don’t know how many words I’ll write. I’ve hit the end of my targeted first draft word count for this book, but I haven’t yet finished the story. I normally come in lower on the word count in the first draft and then flesh it out in the second draft, but I may be trimming a lot in the second draft. I’ll probably have to cut a lot of talking and eating scenes. I wrote a lot of conversations that I think were more about the characters telling me things about themselves than about the actual story. I can use this knowledge to shape the characters, but the scenes don’t have to be in the book.

Maybe I’ll finish it next week. I don’t know if I can sustain my current productivity pace, but I still need to organize the spare room and the basement.

Books

Time Travel

Last week, I read another book that I got from that box of free books on the sidewalk, The Ministry of Time by Kaliane Bradley. I think maybe someone here recommended it a while ago. At least, the title jumped out at me when I was digging through the box, so it was one of my selections.

I love time travel stories, but not the usual “person from our time goes back in time and has adventures/falls in love” type stories. I like some twists to it, like multiple or parallel timelines, non-linear storytelling, worries about changing the timeline, etc. The book is an interesting twist in that it’s about people from the past who’ve traveled to the “present” (which is the near future). It’s sort of an inverse of the Connie Willis time travel books, in which historians travel in time to study the past. Here, they bring people from the past who were known to have died forward in time just before they died (so they won’t affect the timeline) and study how time travel affects them.

Our heroine/narrator (who remains nameless throughout the book) works as a “bridge” for the Ministry of Time, the organization doing this work. Her job is to help the time travelers transition to their new lives while keeping an eye on them and reporting on how they’re doing. She’s assigned to a polar explorer who went missing in 1847 on an expedition. She’s to live with him for a year to help him adjust. There are other bridges who have different people in their care, including a young woman from the 1600s and a man from World War I.

The author does a wonderful job of capturing the voices and worldviews of these people and what they would think of a modern world. The woman from the 1600s embraces modern life for the freedoms she didn’t have in her time, comes to love movies and becomes a Swiftie. The man from WWI has some trouble adjusting, as he finds it hard to deal with the fact that there were more wars after that devastation. The Victorian polar explorer pretty much refuses to adapt, aside from being keen on motorcycles, and maintains his stiff upper lip and his manners.

This is a slow burn of a book. The first half is mostly a comedy of manners as we deal with all these historical fish out of water, but then it takes a turn into spy thriller, as things start happening to the time travelers and a threat becomes increasingly apparent. Our heroine starts to worry that the threat is coming from within, but she doesn’t know who she can trust — and then the time travelers aren’t sure they can trust her. Meanwhile, she and her assigned time traveler have grown far closer than they were supposed to, though they have very different ideas of what constitutes “courting.” That relationship is also a slow burn, though when it does happen, it gets pretty graphic, so fair warning. I was a little uncomfortable with those bits, since this person is a real historical figure and it’s kind of weird to get that explicit about a real person that way.

Aside from the time travel hijinks and spy thriller escapades, there’s some musing on what it is to be a displaced person who can never fit in. The narrator is biracial, the daughter of a refugee, and she’s well aware that her Victorian comes from a British empire where she wouldn’t have been considered fully human. At the same time, that helps her empathize with his situation of not quite fitting in.

Aside from my discomfort with graphic scenes involving a real person, I really enjoyed the book. It’s quite funny in places and then gets really emotional and tense. I’d recommend it for fans of the Connie Willis time travel books or other time travelers exploring history stories, like the TV series Timeless.

Life

So Much to Do

One thing I find amusing about life in the small city I’ve moved to is that there seems to be a lot more going on here than there was in the Dallas area. I’m sure there were actually more events in the entire DFW Metroplex, but they were scattered all over the place, so going to anything usually involved at least half an hour of driving on freeways. There wasn’t much happening in my immediate area. Here, there’s always so much going on that I sometimes get paralyzed by the choices, and most of it is within walking distance or, if it’s at night, it’s a 5-minute drive.

Today was a chamber music day. There’s a summer string institute hosted at the local university, with kids and young adults from all over the world coming to spend a couple of months studying with top-ranked teachers. There are a bunch of concerts associated with the event, but my favorites are the chamber music matinees. They have free midday concerts at the Shakespeare theater, with the kids divided into string quartets and devoting the summer to working on a major piece that they then perform at these concerts. They have to introduce the piece and describe what it means to them, and they have to go through the proper protocol for bows and response to applause.

This venue is amazing for chamber music. It’s a replica of the Blackfriars Theatre, where Shakespeare’s troupe performed once they were famous and were organized as the King’s Men, and all that wood makes the music sing. It’s like being inside a cello, and you can even feel the music. I like sitting in the box seats that are beside the stage because the vibrations are stronger there and I can see the violinists’ faces. I like watching the interplay between the musicians as they check in with each other and cue each other. It gives me hope for the future to see kids from China, Taiwan, and the US making music together.

Today’s concert also included a few solo pieces, with a cello and two violin solos, featuring some of the more advanced, older students.

Then next month is the classical music festival put on in this town. I usher for that, so I get into a lot of the concerts for free. There are people who make it their summer vacation to spend two weeks in town going to every concert.

Meanwhile, there are concerts just about every night in the park, with the community band on Mondays, bluegrass on Wednesdays, and jazz on Thursdays. There’s a concert on the street downtown this Saturday evening. There are also Irish jam sessions in various places around town.

I could fill my schedule with music alone. Then there’s all the theater, gallery shows, lectures, festivals, etc. I seem to have found the small town that isn’t at all boring.

writing, movies

Surprise vs. Satisfaction

A few weeks ago, I was in the mood for something fun and dumb and ended up watching Jumanji: Welcome to the Jungle. This is the movie in which a group of kids in detention stumbles upon an old video game while having to clean out a school storeroom and soon find themselves in the world of the game as the characters they picked to play. I think most of the appeal of this movie is seeing the adult movie stars playing the teenage characters because the actors seem to be having a blast. We’ve got Dwayne Johnson playing the videogame nerd who’s never been big on physical stuff but who does know all about games and who has to get used to his character’s capabilities and Karen Gillan as the nerdy girl stuck as a Lara Croft kind of character.

The biggest contrast between actor and role is Jack Black playing a shallow, social media-obsessed teenage girl (the character had a name she thought sounded like a girl, so she’s not happy to find herself in the body of a middle-aged male scientist). I’ve never really thought of Jack Black as a serious actor. He pretty much has one persona he plays, and the difference between characters is mostly just dialing up and down how intense he gets with that persona. But here he takes on an entirely different character and pulls it off. He may ham it up a bit, but he gives a good performance that shows depth and vulnerability for the character and gives a real growth arc. If an actual young actress had played the role exactly the way he did, we’d say it was a good serious performance. It just becomes hilarious when it’s someone who looks like Jack Black doing it.

But the main thing that got me started thinking from this movie was the idea of predicability/inevitability in writing. It may just be that I’m a story structure nerd, but I felt that the various arcs and outcomes were really obvious. You knew which characters were going to be tested in which ways, which relationships would form or be revived. And yet this didn’t bother me because all of these things felt inevitable. I’d have been disappointed if these things hadn’t happened. These were the things I wanted to happen. I wanted the nerd and the jock who were best friends in elementary school but who had fallen apart once the jock became popular to find their friendship again. I wanted the shallow girl to learn to think of others, to the point of being willing to give up something important to help another person. Even though I saw all the arcs, transformations, and outcomes coming, I still found it to be an emotionally satisfying movie, one that ended with the sense that all was right with the world.

About the only way to escape the trap of being satisfying without being predictable is to find a way to do the thing the audience wants but in a way they didn’t see coming. If you surprise the audience by not doing the thing that feels inevitable, they may be disappointed. Surprise is only good in stories if what happens in the story is even better than what the audience expected or wanted to happen. And that’s really, really tricky. It’s awesome if you can pull it off, but sometimes the expected outcome is so satisfying that you don’t care that you predicted it.

I do have to remind myself that what’s obvious to me may not be obvious to everyone, just because I’ve spent so much time studying this stuff and tend to read and watch with an analytical eye.

Life

Home Improvement

I’ve been on a home improvement kick lately. I got the new office rug last week, and last weekend’s project was redoing the kitchen window. It’s an odd window not like any others in the house. I think it may have been added after the fact during some other renovations. The cart with the air fryer oven sits in front of it, so curtains are out, but it also faces the street, so I need something at that window for privacy. There are tall bushes along the front of the yard next to the street and there’s not a lot of traffic at this end of the dead-end street, but you could still see into the kitchen while coming up the street or from the front yard across the street.

The solution I came up with last year was cling film on the lower pane. That came up to about my neck, so if I did go to the refrigerator while wearing my pajamas, anyone who saw me would only see my head. But the film wasn’t what I thought it would be. I was hoping for something like stained glass, but it was more matte and looked cheap.

Then I found a valance that matches some placemats I already have that I mostly use to protect the countertops. It would have clashed with the old cling film, so I got some that has an etched glass effect but no color. Last weekend, I put up the curtain rod with the valance and the new cling film, and I really like the result. It pulls the kitchen together.

A kitchen window. A blue and white valance covers the top portion. The bottom has an etched-glass floral pattern. An air fryer oven sits in front of the window.
The new, improved kitchen window, giving me privacy but enough space to look out, and nothing that will catch fire from the air fryer.

As a bonus, I moved the old film to the south-facing window in my spare room, and it blocks a lot of the direct sunlight I get in the afternoon, which keeps the house cool. I had extra etched glass film, so I put one bit of it in the downstairs window that directly faces the neighbor’s house. I can still see out of the upper pane but it gives me a little more privacy, and it’s supposed to have some UV protection. I think it softens the direct sunlight in the evening (the window faces west). I’m going to put the other piece of it in the bedroom window that faces the neighbor’s house. I like to open the shades, but then if I need to change clothes during the day I have to go to another room or close the shades. With this and the lace curtains I think I won’t be visible. I’ve tried looking from outside and can’t see anything, but when I can see my neighbor’s windows from inside, I feel like I can be seen.

Then I went to work on getting the front porch ready so I can eat outside. I had a coupon from Lowe’s, so I got the rest of the stepping stones I needed to redo my front walk. They’re currently in place, killing the grass below them. Later I’ll get them set in the ground better and fill it out with gravel. It’s so much more convenient taking that path. I’ll be turning the little triangle that creates into a flowerbed, and that’s where I’ll move some lilies and hostas when I divide them this fall. I got the new table this morning, so my front porch dining is ready to go. Alas, it will have to wait because we’re getting the wildfire smoke, and it’s not pleasant to sit outdoors right now. Next week, though, I’m looking forward to having breakfast outside.

A path made of faux "natural" stepping stones leads from a front porch to a driveway. Along the edge of the driveway is a straight path of stones overgrown with weeds.
The new path is the curving one. The old path is the straight one to the side. The photo is taken from in front of the door, so you can see how inconvenient the old path was. I need to kill a lot of weeds.

One other thing I found when shopping for the table was a rechargeable LED table lamp. The overhead light in the spare room is too bright for when I do yoga in the evening in there, and since the light is on the ceiling fan, turning on the light means turning on the fan in the summer when I have the ceiling fans on. There’s only one power outlet in that room. So a battery-operated light that dims and changes color temperature will give me some light without it being overwhelming, and I can easily turn on a light when I need to just grab something in that room without turning on the ceiling fan and then pulling the cord to turn on a light. I have a similar lamp on my desk in my office, and it’s really handy. I just have to remember to charge it every so often. It should be good for power outages, too.

Eventually I may get this house just the way I want it, but by then I’ll come up with some new project. I still plan to get some curtains for the office and front room, and I may eventually want a rug in the spare room (I currently have a moving blanket folded up under my yoga mat). My main project, though, is the yard. That’s an ongoing struggle, but I’m gradually reducing the number of weeds and I have some flower beds started. The raspberries have stopped producing fruit, so I can start clearing those out, and I may even be able to get to the fire pit by this fall.

Books

What If Stories

I love “what if?” stories that explore how things might have gone if someone made a different decision at a turning point or if a twist of fate had gone another way. The movie Sliding Doors is one of my favorites, and I wrote something in that vein as a Christmas novella.

In that box of books set out on the sidewalk earlier this year, I found a review copy for a book that falls into that category, Begin Again by Helly Acton. Our heroine Frankie is turning 36 and unhappy with her life, feeling like she made some wrong decisions along the way. She’s still single, in a job that she’s come to hate, living in a tiny apartment, and having disastrous dates while her friends are married, buying property, having kids, and having dream jobs. On the night of her birthday, on the way home from another disaster date, she slips, falls, hits her head, and wakes up in a strange place that seems to be part train station, part office park.

There she’s informed that she died when she hit her head, but she’s being given a second chance. She can move on or go back, and she can choose which life she wants to go back to. She gets to live 24 hours in each of the lives she’d have now if she’d made a different decision at a pivotal moment in her past — if she’d taken that job abroad, if she’d accepted that marriage proposal, if she’d gone back to that ex, if she hadn’t chickened out on that job interview. Or she could go back to the life she had. It’s not an easy decision because each life has its pluses and minuses, and her old life has things she doesn’t want to give up even if she wasn’t happy with all of it.

I know the term is out of favor these days, but this book was pure chick lit, right out of 2002. We had our London singleton career girl, her job in the media, and her group of quirky friends. They tend to refer to books like this as “rom coms” now, but the romance content was pretty minimal. It was mostly about the heroine and her growth as a person. I really miss books like this, and I enjoyed this one, particularly with the twist of exploring a variety of possible lives. It would make a good movie since the lives are so different and Frankie’s just dumped into them without any kind of download for her to know what happened in the meantime since she made that pivotal choice. She doesn’t know how her relationships stand, where things are in the house where she lives, or what she does for a living, and she has to bluff her way through and figure things out on the fly. It would be a fun role for an actress. I guess it’s similar to the TV series Being Erica.

It’s funny, I generally find “light” reading like this more thought-provoking than literary fiction, maybe because it comes closer to relating to my life, so it makes me think. Woven in among the comedy hijinks is the idea of figuring out what you really want and what’s most important to you, as well as the idea that whatever life you end up in, you can’t change the past but you can change the future.

It looks like this one is a couple of years old (but this time I wasn’t the one sitting on a review copy until well after the book was published. I didn’t get it until a couple of years after it was published) and never heard about it, so I don’t know how it did. My smallish town library system has a couple of copies, which suggests it got some pickup, but it has no other books by this author.

I’ve been pondering what my pivotal decisions would be. Possibly admitting to myself that I actually hated my major in college and letting myself explore other options instead of forcing myself to stick with it. Then there was a job I hoped to get in another part of the country, gave up on and took another job (and got a new apartment), only to have the first job contact me about an opening. Maybe the decision to submit Enchanted, Inc. as chick lit rather than as fantasy (since it came out right as chick lit was dying off and urban fantasy was on the rise). I don’t really have any relationship ones since I never turned down a marriage proposal, I have no “man who got away,” and when I’ve run into men I used to have crushes on and see them now, I feel like I dodged a bullet.

Like I said, it’s a fun, fluffy book, but it really made me think.

Life

Little Things

I got my new office rug earlier this week, and it turns out it wasn’t just a frivolous “pretend my office is fancy and belongs to a bestseller” thing. It functions differently. The old rug had a pebbly texture that kept my chair from rolling smoothly, so it was difficult to position myself for optimum comfort while writing. The new rug lets my chair roll easily, so I can move around and get into place. Since it’s bigger, it means I don’t have to worry about rolling off the rug. It’s also more pleasant to walk to my desk. I didn’t realize how much the texture of the old rug bothered me until I got the new one.I wouldn’t say that my productivity has escalated since I got it, but it’s only been a couple of days, and on one of those days I had an appointment so I was out all afternoon. The true test will come next week. It’s funny what a big difference little things make.

My next project may be fixing up my front porch and finishing moving the front walk. I haven’t really used my front porch because I haven’t lived in a place that really had a front porch so I don’t think about it. The porch was mostly something that gave some shelter while I unlocked the door. But since I have an old house, I have a proper front porch, and I live in a very front porch neighborhood in a front porch town. I’ve pretty much gone on autopilot, thinking in terms of the back porch, so I’ve been using my deck for sitting outside. But the deck isn’t covered, so it’s not good in rain or when the sun’s at the wrong angle. It’s also up the stairs and through the house, which has affected my breakfast and lunch habits.

In my old house and in the apartment I had here before I got the house, I ate breakfast and lunch most days on my back porch/patio when the weather was decent. I haven’t been doing that much in this house because getting to the deck from the kitchen involves going up the stairs and through the house. In the old house and apartment, the back door was pretty much right at the kitchen.

But last night when I was walking to the park for a concert, I passed a Victorian house where a couple was eating dinner on their front porch, and I remembered that my next-door neighbors putting a dining table on their front porch was the reason I needed to get better blinds in the window that directly faces their porch. I came home and had the “duh” moment of realizing that I have a front porch that opens almost directly from the kitchen.

I currently have a couple of chairs and a small table there. The table’s just enough to set down a drink. But if I put a bistro table there, I could eat meals there. I need to finish moving the front walk because the new path takes it to the front door and the current path means you’d have to walk past the table. The front porch isn’t as private as the deck, but then the porch at the apartment wasn’t entirely private, as the yard was open to everyone in the building. Then again, I’ve frequently had conversations with neighbors over the fence from my deck, so it’s not as though I’d want to go out there without being properly dressed. There’s not a lot of traffic on my street, so most of the time it would be pretty private. And since it’s covered, I could be outside in the rain unless it’s really windy, and I could eat lunch there. The deck is a bit too sunny at lunchtime.

So I just need to find a table. Fortunately, we’re at the time of year when patio furniture is being put on clearance, so I might be able to find a deal. Then I need to finish the front walk, and I’ll be turning the area in front of where the table will go into a flowerbed, which will eventually offer more privacy. I need to divide a lot of my dayliles and hostas after this growing season, so the excess will go in that flowerbed. I may also put up a trellis and get something climbing. I suspect this is another one of those small changes that will make a big difference in day-to-day life.

Even before I get that table, I need to remember how much I enjoy sitting under a covered area when it’s raining. There’s something about having a cup of tea with rain falling just feet away. I can do that on my porch at any time and yet I haven’t.

writing life

Living My Ideal Life

I’ve been playing a game with myself for the past week or so. As part of a goal-setting exercise, I had to picture my ideal day in my ideal career. If I had everything I wanted, what would my typical day be like?

And then it occurred to me that there was nothing stopping me from having that kind of day now, so I started pretending that I was already a bestselling author. The book I’m writing now got published and was a huge bestseller, so I was pretending my writing was the sequel. What would bestselling author me do differently from the way I work now?

That’s been a surprisingly effective way to get stuff done. Bestselling Author Me would have a lot more confidence about promoting her work, so instead of overthinking opportunities, I’ve made myself jump at them. An author working at bestseller level would be diligent about getting work done. She’d put in a full day’s work on writing, business, and marketing and not get sidetracked by random things.

But my ideal life also has time for life beyond work. I may put in a day’s work, but I then give myself time to rest and relax after work. I do yoga, spend time reading and knitting, maybe listening to music, a little TV time. My back had been complaining after I overdid it with some gardening work and contorting myself to reach raspberries, but a week of doing yoga daily and I felt a lot better. I’ve also been sleeping better.

In my ideal life, my house is clean and organized and stays that way. I haven’t achieved that yet, but I made good progress in some trouble spots. I’m fine-tuning my office. One irritation is the rug in my office. My office chair’s casters are meant for use on carpet, and I don’t want to scratch up my wood floors (which are original to the house). The rug I bought was for a different chair when my office was set up differently, and the chair keeps rolling off it or doesn’t want to roll smoothly. I got fed up with that, and since Wayfair was having a sale, I found a new rug that should fit better. That’s coming later today.

One odd thing that came up from this exercise is that I seem to do better when I dress for work. Not that I’m putting on a suit and makeup, but on a hot day last week I wore a light linen dress instead of my usual summer uniform of shorts and a t-shirt, and I felt a lot more adult and professional. I felt a bit like a glamorous bestselling author. So, I picked up a few cheap t-shirt and tank-style dresses. They’re actually more comfortable than the t-shirts and shorts because there aren’t any waistbands, and I feel like I’m at work when I’m dressed up a bit.

Of course, not every day can be an ideal day. I’ve had days when I was slipping — like this Monday when I got sidetracked by online shopping for office rugs and yesterday when I couldn’t seem to focus at all — but then the next day I start the day by thinking of how my ideal day would go. On the non-focus day, my “what would Bestselling Author Future Me do?” approach meant that I took care of a lot of other stuff instead of wasting time and doomscrolling. I did some brainstorming and planning, some research into marketing opportunities, and took care of a lot of little admin and life tasks that I’d been procrastinating.

It feels really good to get to the end of a work day and be able to look back on what I’ve done and then relax with no guilt because I met my goals for the day. That makes it easier to go into the next day chasing that feeling. I’m trying not to think in terms of having to do this every day, forever, but I do try to start each day with the goal of living it as though I’ve already been successful with the things I’m going to do that day.